I search for the words this morning….for life, breath, death and everything in between. I would like to slip into the still waters and let all of the ripples of my thoughts fan out and dissipate for a time….but its him that I want to surround me and keep me afloat.
I search my mind to find what it is I need to spill on this page to make the noise subside. I am starting to fall…….F**K!!! Its him….he is with me in thought and heart more than not…so here you go.
Sometimes life throws situations and people in your path that change everything. Your thought process…the way you live day-to-day, the way you love and who you trust. A common situation put us directly in line to connect. I never saw him coming and here he is. I adore him….and it grows daily. I was asked my favorite thing about him not long after I met him and it was instantaneous. His strong character. The list now grows daily. I love the conversations we have, they range from ridiculous to intense. He makes me laugh and makes me happy just by being who he is. I value his thoughts and opinions and I know if we put our time and effort together there is success to be had. There are people who come into our lives and they make you want to do better, be better and put all your thoughts into motion…someone said “Failure is not trying”. I cannot feel failure with him…what we touch together will teach us and we will grow, learn and succeed. I have never been so near to the feeling of succeeding with someone….a deep knowing that when we put our minds together, we can achieve what we set in motion. It feels unfamiliar and good.
I can only wonder at this point, by the things he has said..or left unspoken, about the things in his life before now. He said he trusts no one….but I will teach him that he can trust me. What I can give him is vastly different..despite all the things I have been through I am willing to risk my heart to him, trust him fully and begin with him. I wonder who has betrayed him…or better yet, who hasn’t?
I know that not every relationship is perfect and there will be trials, but if the bond is strong enough, you can work through anything. Especially if you want it.
The most important thing, is trusting, supporting and respecting your partner.
“WHEN TWO WORLDS COLLIDE……..kindness and strength, creativity and logic, naivety and wisdom of the world, the thinker and the doer…He considers all the options and she dives in deeply….he keeps her grounded and she adores him. The combination is fierce……When two worlds collide.”
(written a while about my love, my darkness, my other half)