She made a list once
Of the things that needed to be taken care of
When she wasn’t here any more
Who to call
and contact
and lean on
All the information needed
in the finality of life
And then she learned
about another lady who made a list
Much like hers
And she realized that it was
not the time for her list
So she tucked it away
Hoping and knowing
time heals
and mends
and changes
and sometimes it’s not good
to make lists like hers
Life is ever-changing. Sometimes it is slow and steady, and sometimes it shakes the foundation of everything you know. Change…is constant and consistent even if we are unaware. Every. Single. Day.
I have learned a lot in life and not always in an easy manner. I have learned about forgiveness. Perhaps one of my greatest lessons is forgiveness. I have learned that when you pick someone up in their darkest hours it doesn’t mean that they will be there when you are merely treading water. Also that when you listen without judgement it wont necessarily be returned when you need it….not from where you thought it would.
Change…colors of leaves…thats what I think of first. Life is changing daily. New choices and decisions. New direction and roads.
The black pants and the white blouse? Hair up or down? Do people judge you because of your tattoos? Weird, random thoughts. Sometimes things just don’t make sense, and sometimes I know they aren’t supposed to.
A new day and a new page. Do you change the paper? Do you change the ink? Solid or lined? You just change.
And the reality of it is ….you go with the flow and learn to begin again. You learn to stop treading and start swimming again. To remember who you are and realize that you are a valuable human being.
And the reality is…you learn to forgive yourself for being hard on you.
Peace for your Saturday night and always.
You will never be enough for someone who isn’t ready for someone like you. I have observed that it doesn’t really matter how well you love, give or do for someone who isn’t ready for someone like you, it will never be enough.
I went to the market last night and there is a manager there who is always happy and friendly. Even when it’s insanely busy and people are incredibly short, Bobby always has a kind word and a smile for everyone. So as he was helping me I asked him plainly…”what is the secret to life?” He said “To truly know yourself. You are in charge of what you allow someone to take from you. You accept how they treat you, to truly know yourself and your worth is the key”. I think I could have stayed in that line for another half hour receiving his wisdom. Everyone teaches us something, it’s up to us to receive and accept the knowledge. I accepted it….and went home clearer than I was when I arrived.
We are responsible for the energy we give away and the time and effort that is not reciprocated. We are responsible for how we allow people to treat us. A few things to consider:
Its important not to waste people’s time or let them waste yours.
I wouldn’t change or take back the things in life that have happened to me, I would not be who I am or know the amazing people who add quality to my days. I know my worth, but the strange part is that I allow people in my life who don’t know or acknowledge it. I know what I want in friendships and a relationship. I can honestly say that the friendships I have now are good, strong friendships that have been in place as far back as 35 years. That says something to me…it says a lot.
Certain experiences have made me a little more guarded, lessons received. I know that some situations repeat themselves until you have had enough and choose change. At some point we will be vulnerable again with others and open ourselves to love and change and more importantly chance.
Chance, Change, Clarity and Certainty
Be mindful of how much of yourself you give to someone who you aren’t enough for…in the end it’s not you who isn’t enough. Some are just never satisfied.
Some of my favorite words “We only pass by this way once”.
So, Peace for you Saturday and for 2018
Something Resembling Life 